Randomness from an Unconcentrated Mess

It's been a while since I posted. I had a draft, but it has since disappeared and though I remember how it started, I don't remember exactly what it said or where it was going. I am back in school now and in need of more practical procrastination techniques than simply mail and facebook. Strangely enough, however, all my homework for tonight is already done.

It is the second week of classes and feels like Christmas break should have begun already. This being said, you should also know that I have spent most of this week in bed sick, so really, I have only participated in one full week of classes.

My facebook statuses have ranged in the last week from slightly funny--"once upon a time there was a place called college and no one liked it and it was over priced and they charged you for everything and people were pretentious, but then one day...oh wait...nope...hasn't changed. :-)"

to seemingly funny but with a strong whiff of truth--"finishing college is the art of procrastinating your withdrawn slip a few days longer than your homework."

all the way to nostalgic--"Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget."

I'm not really sure what this says about my last fourteen days except perhaps that a range of events and emotions have snuck into my life without my permission.

I usually love learning new things and gaining new experiences but coming back to College, seeing as where this College is, rips out any willingness to participate. I have signed up for activities that I love to do. I am in classes that I like (Besides Spanish which is another story entirely). And still, I can't help but feel my brain melting like wax is this little dungeon room of mine. No matter how many things I have to cover the pee colored walls, no matter how bright and cheery and homey I try to make it, I feel like I need to be a recluse every time I walk in.

On another note, a story which I believe everyone should read, for one purpose or another, is called Geek Love, by Katherine Dunn. It is a novel that tells the story of the Binewskis a carnival family that bred its own freak show. Quite interesting, sad, dynamic, overall a good read.

I'm a little bit everywhere tonight--my life has changed pretty drastically since the last time I updated, though those of you who read it pretty much know the real time updates.

I still want to be in California.
I still hate Iowa.

A great story about my school--in my school newspaper--everyone should read it!!!
http://www.thesandb.com/features/wtf-where-the-fk-am-i.html
My favorite quote came from a first year--"I don't know why I thought they were kidding about the cornfields."

I never get sick with normal stuff, I always get these weird viruses that last forever. I don't get sick often, but when I do it knocks me out. I hate being sick and am hoping this bout is 'bout over.

Also, my tan from the summer that I worked so hard for is almost gone. It's a sad day.